really puts life in perspective. Make mends with enemies, call your parents more often, hit up an old friend, or just tell the people who really matter how much they mean to you. Sounds cliche but life is short and you’ll never know when it can be taken from you or someone else. Rip Kenzie, you were a friend and you will be missed.
1. My future scares me really bad
I’m not worried about getting a job or anything, I’m scared that it’s happening so soon. I’ve been so comfortable these past years living the life living off mommy and daddy’s money basically being able to do whatever I want when I want. I know I’m going to have to be a lot more responsible in a few months and really learn to manage my money and my going out but I will enjoy it while I still can. But don’t get me wrong, I’m actually really happy and excited as well.
1. I party/go out because I’m single/in college.
I find it so humorous when guys judge girls based upon how much they go out to bars. If I met a dude that could actually ground me, I would love that. Sure, I need a guy that is willing to go out and slam some beers/get cray with me from time to time, but I guess I get frustrated that guys see me as such a party girl when all I really wanna do is stay in, cuddle on the couch, and watch Netflix with a special someone most nights. So to sum that up: I go out to bars a lot because I’m single and have nothing better to do. I figure I’m not going to meet anyone sitting at home twiddling my thumbs. I’m outgoing, I like to live and experience life. I don’t think that will ever change.
2. I believe in God
The father of almighty…the maker of heaven and earth. Lol okay I won’t get all weird on you because first of all, I’m not that knowledgeable on the topic in the first place and don’t want to sound ignorant. But for the first time in my life, I am finding myself wanting something “more” in my life. Throughout the past month or so, I’ve been going through a lot of weird changes/experiences. I have been noticing changes in my moods, my behaviors, and just have experiencing some more than coincidental experiences. I have been reading and looking up stuff to try to explain what I am going though and after researching, the best way I can describe what I am going through is a “spiritual revelation”. This didn’t necessarily mean anything religious but it explained that I was becoming aware of something that seemed divine in my life that for me, is just way too difficult to explain into words. One night a few weeks ago, I sat in my bed and began to cry for hours to myself because I had no clue why I was feeling this way and just wondered to myself if it was God who was tugging on my heart trying to bring me back to him. After that, I began to experience more coincidences and more feelings and began to think that this couldn’t be anything other than a higher power causing all of this. As I’m writing this, I begin to feel similar vulnerable feelings and emotions because it’s a very touchy subject for me because it’s just so different than anything I have ever experienced but it definitely feels good but at the same time kind of scary. I’m really not even sure if this is making sense but I just feel the need to get it out there because I have really only shared my feelings with a couple of people. However, I am very much open to other opinions and I refuse to be ignorant about the situation. One thing I will continue to do is to do what I believe is right for ME and I hope that my friends can support and won’t judge me based upon what I think is right for MYSELF. I will never pursue any of my thoughts or beliefs on anyone but I am definitely open to talking to anyone who is willing to talk or listen about my situation.
Wellllllllllllll that was a lot. I’m really weird at ending blog posts so I just will.
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Self Portrait on Flickr.
Self Portrait with my new (but old) flash. I think it’s pretty sweet how it makes my pictures turn out. I didn’t do any editing to this other than clicking the “enhance” button.
Told you I was going to write this.
1. Where did your nickname “Cheek” come from?
My ass. No just kidding, I wish it did though. My sister gave it to me as a child. Not a lot of my Ohio friends really even call me it, though. Mostly my family, sister’s friends and some various friends call me it.
2. Do you really even listen to ______?
Yes, I do. Just because I am a girl who dresses and actually looks like a girl doesn’t mean I can’t listen to the bands I choose to listen to. To be honest, I probably know much more about music than what most guys do and I really don’t care if that sounds conceded because it’s true. Deal with it.
3. Why do you go to Akron and not Kent for fashion?
I started off at Akron as an interior design major and hated it so I switched. I’m also on scholarship at Akron too. Also, I would never want to go to Kent for fashion. Even though it’s well recognized, Akron’s program is sooooo much more personalized to what you want to do and is a lot smaller. I can talk to my professors anytime I need to and I know every girl in my major. How many people at Kent say that? Akron is just a good fit for me.
That’ all I can think of for now but I know there is a lot more. I’ll update later.
going to start wirting in this more. I love laughing at my xanga and I’m sure in a few years I’ll love laughing at this too.
Thoughts at the moment:
I’m excited to see all of my favorite bands tomorrow.
I can’t wait to graduate.
I’m even more excited for an unknown future with so many possibilities.
I wanna move somewhere far away where I know no one.
I’m really sick of certain people discouraging me from the things I want to do and the things I like. I hate being put down but negativitly only makes me want to prove them wrong.
But in general, I can’t wait for the next few years of my life.
This tattoo was part of a trade between Mark Sender and Mitch 13, it came out really nice. Done by Mitch 13
(Source: greenlotustattoo)
